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11.5.09
<br />
<br />
bought a new computer for the first time in 8 years
<br />
it is exactly the same but totally fast
<br />
i can actually use youtube now!
<br />
it is an exciting world of youtube
<br />
also plays nice with my tv
<br />
and has a remote control
<br />
and is totally silent
<br />
go computers
<br />
<br />
<br />
10.12.09
<br />
nothing
<br />
<br />
<br />
im constantly getting rid of stuff
<br />
i want to try to get rid of everything
<br />
but it is really hard to justify when my apartment is $600 a month
<br />
and i can put all the stuff i want in it
<br />
and books
<br />
BOOKs
<br />
are really hard to figure out
<br />
they have important information that i need but can't put in my head
<br />
what should i do with the books?
<br />
i researched kerosene heaters and humidifiers today
<br />
but ended up just getting disgusted and giving up on the idea all together
<br />
which happens more often than not
<br />
i think one of the best ideas ever
<br />
is to make something from nothing using only time
<br />
for example cheese or bread or wine or soy sauce or salt
<br />
i have a hard on for evaporation and fermentation
<br />
i know
<br />
but also keeping on the cutting edge of the exact opposite
<br />
and avoiding everything in between if possible
<br />
for example ipods are bad
<br />
because they dont do anything perfectly
<br />
where as a bottle opener does one thing perfectly. forever.
<br />
and yeast does one thing perfectly forever
<br />
books also do one thing perfectly forever but they take up a lot more space than yeast
<br />
obviously more thought should be alotted to this subject
<br />
<br />
7.31.08
<br />
<br />
&#12496;&#12459;&#26053;&#34892; fool's travel
<br />
<br />
I will be in america for two weeks.
<br />
I'm a practitioner of fool's travel.
<br />
two sets of clothes. no planning.
<br />
the only thing i bring is a lot of money and a camera.
<br />
hand out the souvenirs and my suitcase will be empty.
<br />
gonna buy lots of food and clothes and books.
<br />
looking forward to seeing everyone.
<br />
my longest vacation in 3 years.
<br />
<br />
<br />
6.5.09
<br />
<br />
bakuhatsu
<br />
<br />
i have lots of things to talk to you about
<br />
lots of exciting things
<br />
she said
<br />
<br />
i boiled the sardines
<br />
went to the markets
<br />
got asked the real questions by kids
<br />
<br />
there is no better job than cook
<br />
there is no better business than running a restaurant
<br />
there is no fish more delicious than sardine
<br />
<br />
i sat and talked with the highschool girl for an hour or so
<br />
isn't there anything that you want?
<br />
no
<br />
<br />
she called me excitedly
<br />
im here and im happy and im doing things
<br />
im happy for you. what can i do?
<br />
be there, be happy, and be doing things
<br />
<br />
4.23.09
<br />
<br />
pink moment
<br />
<br />
met someone interesting for the first time in a long while
<br />
she used to do wound special effects in LA
<br />
and was obsessed with DJ shadow
<br />
in that way that japanese people seem to get obsessed with things
<br />
but she is the only person i have met that is busier than i am (!)
<br />
which means i can meet her for the second time at the end of may
<br />
which is a long time to wait
<br />
to see how interesting she really is
<br />
<br />
ive been super productive lately
<br />
but my day is divided into the time when i can do absolutely nothing
<br />
and my super productive time
<br />
the switch between the two is tiring to say the least
<br />
mostly ive been: modifying clothes, cooking, raising plants, planning a movable feast, decorating my apartment, simplifying, tuning bikes, reading lots of huge reference books on cooking, working on my wayfarer tan.
<br />
peace in da middle of denise
<br />
<br />
<br />
3.23.09
<br />
<br />
cook's podcast ideas
<br />
<br />
dont talk about how sharp your knives are
<br />
or how hot shit your restaurant is because it has big bucks backing it
<br />
so you have 99% organic produce all from farmers you contract
<br />
just talk about what you are doing, how and why you are doing it
<br />
it is a cook's podcast for cooks.
<br />
talk about things that you like that are going on
<br />
and things you don't like
<br />
talk about being a cook as work 20% of the time and food the rest
<br />
<br />
2.10.09
<br />
the people
<br />
<br />
on my way to work i see the folowing people:
<br />
<br />
a woman who is always getting her bicycle out of a garage of a shuttered house
<br />
a man who wears sun glasses. i see him as i cross a large intersection every day
<br />
the woman who is always wearing some type of scarf
<br />
the man with long dark grey hair who is always riding a bike in front of my school
<br />
the smiley man on my way home. why is he smiling?
<br />
etc
<br />
<br />
1.21.09
<br />
<br />
there is neat system in japan
<br />
whereas you can buy stuff online and have it delived to a convinence store instead of your house
<br />
and then you can go pick it up at any time 24hs a day
<br />
and it's free
<br />
<br />
&#65279;1.16.09
<br />
make tortillas
<br />
<br />
i dont know when i first got the notion to make tortillas
<br />
it was some time right before university started
<br />
i never understood corn tortialls before
<br />
they always used them at the flea market taco trucks
<br />
but they had an unusual taste to them
<br />
then i tried making them
<br />
and eating them
<br />
still hot, steaming in a towel
<br />
with grilled flank
<br />
and salsa
<br />
i made tortillas today
<br />
with flax seeds in them
<br />
making tortillas is good
<br />
let's make tortillas
<br />
<br />
1.12.09
<br />
i have a <a href="http://www.siliconbobulon.com/podcast/podcast.xml">podcast</a>
<br />
remember that?
<br />
i updated it
<br />
<br />
1.7.09
<br />
ajiwaukoto
<br />
<br />
short peace
<br />
vietnamese drip
<br />
shokou shu
<br />
amontilliado
<br />
ofuro
<br />
nag champa
<br />
jinko
<br />
water
<br />
<br />
1.4.09
<br />
in a world where "what's that?" is no longer a relevant question
<br />
2009
<br />
<br />
12.9.08
<br />
you can have everything
<br />
<br />
ojai summer 2005
<br />
we took a hike to a swimming hole
<br />
which is already a very fetishized idea
<br />
from my father's time not mine
<br />
it was a long hike and we were not prepared
<br />
we didnt have enough water and it was extremely hot
<br />
we got to the swimming hole and there were some guys jumping off rocks
<br />
which seemed kind of scary
<br />
so we hiked a little more
<br />
and came to a spot with large smooth rocks and some water
<br />
the sun was getting low
<br />
and we sat on the rocks absorbing their heat
<br />
we all sort of sat seperatly
<br />
i dont know if the other people were thinking about all the things i was thinking about
<br />
life and death
<br />
and everything
<br />
it was one of those moments
<br />
when you feel everything
<br />
you know that something very important is happening
<br />
<br />
you can have everything (if you want it)
<br />
everything exists (even love)
<br />
<br />
and when you think back on that moment
<br />
it is similar to the feeling you have
<br />
when you listen to the best song ever
<br />
we walked back to the car
<br />
on the way back i couldnt stop thinking about that spot
<br />
where i had experienced something
<br />
but i couldnt share it with anyone
<br />
we got in the car and started to drive home
<br />
i looked at her and she smiled
<br />
<br />
<br />
12.8.08
<br />
i like what you've done with the place
<br />
<br />
waves
<br />
beating down the waves
<br />
<br />
get the internet
<br />
and you start to realize that there is information
<br />
on everything
<br />
and it is linked to everything
<br />
you start seeing this information in your everyday life
<br />
for example
<br />
a rash
<br />
this could be a symptom
<br />
surely there is information on the internet about this
<br />
whoah bad idea
<br />
then you sort of get a feel for the way things are connected
<br />
you know what kind of results you will find without even searching
<br />
and it starts to get even further abstracted
<br />
you start imagining everything
<br />
linked to everything
<br />
which is something
<br />
that is very problimatic to internalize
<br />
<br />
do you feel that you are viewing yourself from the 3rd person sometimes?
<br />
yes
<br />
and you are totally out of control of your own actions?
<br />
no, never
<br />
then what?
<br />
just the reverse, i am totally in control and everyone around me is out of control
<br />
what's controlling them?
<br />
stuff, mostly
<br />
what do you feel when you see yourself?
<br />
that i am in on the joke
<br />
and who is playing the joke?
<br />
everyone is playing the joke on eachother
<br />
how did you escape it then?
<br />
i guess i wasnt interested in the lead in bit,
<br />
you know the part where a guy walks into a bar.
<br />
what's the punchline of the joke?
<br />
a guy walks into a bar. OUCH!
<br />
death?
<br />
yeah, death
<br />
but you cant escape death, even if you don't care about the joke
<br />
yeah, but caring about the joke takes a hell of a lot of concentration
<br />
in fact all of it
<br />
and when you stop concetrating you start to realize everything going on around you
<br />
you start to see you
<br />
from outside of you
<br />
<br />
11.13.08
<br />
inonakanokaeru
<br />
the frog in the well
<br />
<br />
knows not of the great ocean
<br />
it is futile to tell it about the ocean
<br />
<br />
you can be free!
<br />
but it's futile
<br />
<br />
hi there im from the ocean
<br />
and even though you were very close to me
<br />
to you leaveing the well was stepping off the edge of a flat earth
<br />
<br />
11.12.08
<br />
peace and hope
<br />
<br />
and kanpeace
<br />
50 peaces(pieces?) in a can
<br />
id have to say that the last few months have not been a particullary good streak
<br />
just sort of average
<br />
scatterd with half promises i half kept
<br />
and dotted with moments of trying really hard
<br />
and not trying at all
<br />
if i could just keep a few promises all of the time
<br />
and try minimally hard most of the some
<br />
i wonder what would happen?
<br />
<br />
promise #31
<br />
touch no money
<br />
<br />
i currently have no money in my wallet
<br />
i havent had any for a week
<br />
i want to see if i can go a month
<br />
without touching money
<br />
except that i have money somewhere in my bag in case i see something really shiney
<br />
<br />
promise #7
<br />
learn japanese
<br />
<br />
i look up tens of words every day in my dictionary
<br />
words that ive heard at least once before get saved in the memo
<br />
i then put them into an awesome flashcard program called
<br />
genius
<br />
and the i review them every night before i go to bed
<br />
except i don't
<br />
and it only happens a few days a month
<br />
<br />
promise#55
<br />
keep my apartment clean all the time
<br />
<br />
im sure you all know how this one goes
<br />
my strategy is to have nothing
<br />
so i have nothing to get messy
<br />
but dishes
<br />
dishes!
<br />
<br />
11.11.08
<br />
dear internet bros
<br />
<br />
i need some allsorts licorice
<br />
for eating
<br />
can you send me some?
<br />
that probably costs you money
<br />
i will give you this money
<br />
<br />
11.3.08
<br />
climbed and climbed
<br />
finally came over the hill
<br />
started to gather momentum
<br />
the bike stabilized
<br />
took my hands off the handle
<br />
stood my body up straight
<br />
closed my eyes
<br />
and waited
<br />
for as long as i could take it
<br />
i opened my eyes and i was still going straight
<br />
tried it again
<br />
was totally off track
<br />
you never know
<br />
<br />
<br />
10.31.08
<br />
jeez jeez haruki murakami in japanese
<br />
<br />
im reading my first novel in japanese
<br />
it takes me less time to read a page in japanese than it does in english
<br />
but that is only when i know how to read everything on the page
<br />
when i dont
<br />
it takes 5 minutes
<br />
<br />
entry aborted
<br />
<br />
10.26.08
<br />
<a href="http://www.theselby.com">things in artists houses</a>
<br />
<br />
sewing machine
<br />
taxidermied animals
<br />
records
<br />
wall of pictures in different frames
<br />
things hanging from the ceiling
<br />
macs
<br />
nudes / sexual things on display
<br />
huge bookshelves full of art books
<br />
leicas
<br />
porcelin kitch
<br />
new york apartments
<br />
old tools
<br />
suitcases
<br />
photos/paintings/drawings of themselves
<br />
beautiful siginificant others
<br />
always non-standard light fixtures
<br />
old photos
<br />
magazine collections
<br />
nice shoes
<br />
bikes
<br />
skulls/skeletons/human figures
<br />
<br />
<br />
10.23.08
<br />
an excerpt from my post apocalyptic novel
<br />
<br />
the fire in the neighborhood near the house i am staying in now really scared me
<br />
who knows what caused it
<br />
probably some rotten battery or a magnifying glass in a windowsill
<br />
but it's still burning
<br />
todays plan:
<br />
blow up all the houses around my house and burn them one by one
<br />
then i will bulldoze the rubble somewhere and collect plants from the nursaries
<br />
this week i am exploring block S-32 on the map
<br />
most of that block is taken up by a jr highschool
<br />
i always imagined finding other people and starting a commune in an old school
<br />
but it still freaks me out to go to one that is totally empty.
<br />
this month i have to go to tokyo
<br />
i am hoping to find the offices of google intact
<br />
there they have a cache of the text of all the websites they index
<br />
this will go into the library i am building back in osaka
<br />
driving is always dangerous because of the animals
<br />
the route is mostly clear but if i run into a pack of tanuki it could be all over
<br />
and the last time i tried to teach myself to fly i almost killed myself
<br />
there has been a smell spreading over the city over the last week
<br />
a very metallic smell
<br />
it is coming from the water i figured out
<br />
i pumped some out of the main that i always use and it reeked
<br />
it must be the activity of some bacteria
<br />
but the water is no longer safe to drink
<br />
i will go back to distilling rainwater
<br />
the place i am living now is a pre ww2 mansion
<br />
i heard stories that durin the war the old man who lived here alone would come out
<br />
to sell tresures he had collected for whatever food he could find
<br />
everyone was starving
<br />
after the war his house was taken by the govenment, slowly, by the new tax system
<br />
and turned into a museum parody of itself that was only open on the first sunday of the month
<br />
the house is getting pretty full
<br />
i still can't help myself, i bring home all kinds of stuff
<br />
i have raided all the museums and after i found the explosives raided everything else
<br />
even after 3 years i have still only explored 1.3% of what i can reach by car in a day
<br />
there is plenty of food
<br />
but the 3 year rice tastes pretty bad compared to what i used to eat
<br />
there are still more sardines in cans than there are in the ocean
<br />
<br />
<br />
<br />
10.21.08
<br />
never work (for money) again - thought 1
<br />
<br />
not working for money is even harder work than working for money
<br />
ya get my drift?
<br />
<br />
start by "owning" the things you dont own
<br />
you don't own the electricty or other utilities
<br />
these can be described as things you lease
<br />
you don't even own the property that you may think you "own"
<br />
the govenment owns your property and you lease it from them every year when you pay property taxes
<br />
you certainly don't own your identity in the way we know it now
<br />
your id cards, birth certificate, etc are your identity and they are not yours
<br />
<br />
there are some things you cant, or won't want to own.
<br />
for example owning water means you need to own land with the well on it
<br />
these things go on the list of things that are essentially free
<br />
not free as in beer
<br />
but free as in air
<br />
<br />
living in a system that uses money means you will have to rely on the system's leaks
<br />
dumpster diving
<br />
charity
<br />
the blind spots of society
<br />
loopholes
<br />
feedback loops
<br />
<br />
if you use the remaining money you have as a "monied" person you can set up a good loop
<br />
for example renting out a property you own to pay it's taxes and upkeep
<br />
live in a small shelter on the same property
<br />
this is a money loop you never have to touch, it takes care of its self for the most part
<br />
that leaves you
<br />
<br />
so now you have to worry about you
<br />
without money you will die
<br />
you will die before you would die if you had money
<br />
no money to pay for healthcare means just that
<br />
if you participate in whatever welfare system there is you can extend your life
<br />
<br />
there are a lot of ways to do it
<br />
so quit your job today
<br />
<br />
10.19.08
<br />
shower
<br />
<br />
wash hair with massage brush
<br />
wash face with scrub
<br />
brush teeth / scrape toungue
<br />
wash body with puff
<br />
shave
<br />
wash nose again
<br />
dry
<br />
apply pore stuff (wait 5 min)
<br />
apply antiperspirant
<br />
apply conditioner
<br />
dress
<br />
apply face lotion with spf
<br />
<br />
way too complicated
<br />
<br />
10.2.08(cusp)
<br />
a portrait of a john, 25 years old
<br />
<br />
another day
<br />
another dollar
<br />
another ring around the collar
<br />
<br />
i'll be twenty five
<br />
tomorrow
<br />
i'll put my thoughts here
<br />
and then look at them next year
<br />
<br />
people are more important
<br />
people are really easy to read
<br />
this year people were really important
<br />
<br />
things are less important
<br />
throw them away
<br />
and you will be free
<br />
<br />
collect tools
<br />
knowledge is a tool
<br />
but only the good tools
<br />
the proven tools
<br />
and the new tools
<br />
whose relivency can be determined
<br />
by experience
<br />
<br />
you are lucky
<br />
very lucky
<br />
but that is also a burden
<br />
<br />
do whatever you can do
<br />
to keep your mind sharp
<br />
<br />
vanity is stupid
<br />
don't participate in it
<br />
<br />
you can work every day
<br />
you can never work
<br />
either way you will survive
<br />
because you are participating in a system
<br />
which prevents failure
<br />
<br />
damn, i dont have the right inspiration
<br />
to write this now
<br />
goodnight 24
<br />
<br />
<br />
9.30.08
<br />
a conversation i had with my father in a dream
<br />
<br />
what was it like to be a janitor?
<br />
is was the best ever.
<br />
what was so great about it?
<br />
well basically you sleep all day go into the school after most people leave
<br />
wax the hallways and vacuume the classrooms
<br />
wipe down the blackboards
<br />
thats about it
<br />
you have your own office
<br />
and if you are effcient you can finnish cleaning and just sleep until it's time to go home
<br />
and it's govenment so you get health benifits etc
<br />
i can imagine nowadays if you brought a laptop it could be great
<br />
yeah
<br />
so why did you leave it?
<br />
basically i needed more money for the family and you just sort of get burned out
<br />
you can only goof off for so long in the same place before people get uptight
<br />
i bet the atmosphere of a school at night is pretty good
<br />
all the energy of the kids is sort of soaked into the walls and floors
<br />
the air is thick with constuction paper and the smell of sunshine coming from the big windows
<br />
yeah, you really notice the seasons for some reason
<br />
sure beats being a teacher
<br />
<br />
---
<br />
<br />
what did you just say?
<br />
no
<br />
what did you just say!
<br />
you just said it!
<br />
the word!
<br />
i was trying to think of
<br />
<br />
---
<br />
<br />
when my alarm went off this morning
<br />
i was lying on my back
<br />
and the tip of my nose was cold
<br />
really cold
<br />
i opened my eyes and the light was blinding so i closed them
<br />
and i saw floating in front of me black text on a white background
<br />
its format was that of an email
<br />
it was from julia
<br />
and the topic of the letter was fall
<br />
the first line applogized for the appearence of the text
<br />
it was the best she could find on short notice
<br />
the rest of the letter was written in my style not her's
<br />
and went something like this:
<br />
you look down at the rain in the gutter from the open car door
<br />
some bright pink chewed up gum is tumbling down the stream
<br />
in your mind you see a colorful flashing neon sign
<br />
and you smell the smell of being hit in the head
<br />
hard
<br />
plus the smell of liquid <a href="http://www.pharmaceutical-drug-manufacturers.com/gifs/amoxicillin.jpg">amoxicillin</a>
<br />
then the sound of whoppers being shaken in the box can be heard
<br />
and you see the front of a dentist's office
<br />
where the japanese maple is very striking in its fall colors
<br />
you smell the smoke from a chimney
<br />
but you know it is the firewood heating a bath
<br />
then blood of an animal being spilled
<br />
a burrito on a white plate
<br />
and crying
<br />
<br />
9.26.08
<br />
moving to japan helped me realize a lot of my dreams
<br />
working in a japanese restaurant was one of them
<br />
i am making a section of this website devoted to that
<br />
<a href="../washoku/">washoku</a>
<br />
<br />
9.23.08
<br />
somewhere something is spinning very fast
<br />
it's spinning
<br />
somewhere something is burning very hot
<br />
it's burning
<br />
<br />
<br />
9.17.09
<br />
pineapple seeds
<br />
<br />
i bought a pine apple and ate it
<br />
the whole thing in one go
<br />
the strange thing was that it had seeds
<br />
little black hard seeds near the skin
<br />
so i threw them in a pot
<br />
and a few days later i have pineapple sprouts
<br />
does anyone want a pineapple plant?
<br />
they are bromeliads
<br />
they will grow you pineapples
<br />
<br />
9.16.09
<br />
tsukimi
<br />
<br />
the moon controls the tides
<br />
it controls the inner juices of man
<br />
once you see it you can't unsee it
<br />
yet every time you see it
<br />
it's new
<br />
because it's so far away
<br />
because there's so much stuff between you and it
<br />
so why can perception be like viewing the moon
<br />
if you look at the mona lisa once
<br />
you've seen the mona lisa
<br />
if you back 10 years later
<br />
and you look at the mona lisa
<br />
it's the same mona lisa
<br />
because there's no physical stuff between you and it
<br />
nothing perceptable
<br />
with your eyes
<br />
like the moon
<br />
if we could make all of that stuff that we can't see
<br />
that we can't perceive
<br />
like that stuff between us and the moon
<br />
then we could look at something for the first time
<br />
every time
<br />
<br />
9.15.09
<br />
today i bought hundreds of dollars of new bedding
<br />
a 90% goose down comforter
<br />
hemp comforter cover, matching pillow cases
<br />
two soba pillows
<br />
jersey fit sheet
<br />
cotton mattress pad with 3D baffel design
<br />
i ran around all day, but saved a ton of money in doing so
<br />
i didn't know anything about bedding until this morning
<br />
with the power of the internet a hour of research will bring you up to speed on anything
<br />
now i will surely sleep in supreme comfort this winter
<br />
<br />
9.12.09
<br />
i found the new thickest ramen ever
<br />
there is clearly a cauldron of bones boiling away behind the counter
<br />
imagine delcious elmers glue
<br />
with noodles in it
<br />
so good
<br />
you can get replacement noodles for 100 yen
<br />
if you eat all the noodles
<br />
one bowl of the soup would be enough to make 2 gallons of flavorful collard greens
<br />
and the name is
<br />
muteppou
<br />
which means
<br />
no gun
<br />
<br />
9.11.09
<br />
shaving is a story
<br />
<br />
cuture is the stories we tell
<br />
is an idea
<br />
i was exposed to in university
<br />
we tell them with language
<br />
(don't tell noam chompsky)
<br />
language is a virus
<br />
(don't tell laurie anderson or burroughs)
<br />
shaving is a story
<br />
stories just get better and better
<br />
we have the technology now to find the "writers"
<br />
of all the stories ever
<br />
(dont tell brian eno, or david byrne for that matter)
<br />
and they will make them and we will be exposed to them
<br />
the internet is a virus
<br />
it works on language
<br />
what will this do to culture?
<br />
<br />
--
<br />
<br />
autopilots
<br />
<br />
picture yourself winning the race
<br />
is something my swim coach told me when i was a kid
<br />
his name was joe
<br />
picture yourself moving through the water
<br />
picture the walls of the pool
<br />
picture the shoes of the spectators on the deck
<br />
picture the girl at the supermarket last night
<br />
when you remembered you were out of rice
<br />
<br />
going on autopilot is a well known phenomenon
<br />
you do something without thinking of doing it
<br />
in times when you don't want to be doing that thing
<br />
or when you have no choice in the matter
<br />
<br />
you picture yourself winning the race
<br />
the podium
<br />
etc
<br />
and when you hit the water
<br />
you think about nothing
<br />
<br />
how far can you expand your conciousness
<br />
to include as many things as possible
<br />
to include the girl in the supermarket
<br />
so that you can be present at the controls
<br />
when you want to be the pilot
<br />
<br />
when you are in the water it is like a replay
<br />
of the events you have already pictured
<br />
and everything should go as planned
<br />
he said
<br />
<br />
i went to the store to buy rice
<br />
i made complex decissions
<br />
and then i came home and realized
<br />
when my foot hit the pedal
<br />
that i thought of nothing
<br />
until i was eating hot rice
<br />
<br />
if you try to concentrate on everything all day
<br />
you will be very tired at the end
<br />
believe me, ive tried it
<br />
there are certain times you have to go on autopilot
<br />
where you indulge in what zen is searching for
<br />
but what if you could focus all the time
<br />
and save your ability to think about nothing
<br />
for a time when you have nothing to replay
<br />
nothing to go as planned
<br />
just go on autopilot
<br />
in a black box?
<br />
<br />
9.8.09
<br />
living in japan
<br />
has helped me view living in america again
<br />
with a pre-living in japan kind of wonderlust
<br />
25cent jawbreaker vending machines instead of gachagacha machines
<br />
diner food instead of kissaten
<br />
diversity instead of monoculture
<br />
all seem so new and fresh
<br />
exciting
<br />
like viewing them for the first time
<br />
it is great
<br />
perfect almost
<br />
two great tastes that taste great together
<br />
<br />
9.7.09
<br />
john
<br />
starting from next week there will be a section on the menu
<br />
with each individual cook's personal menu
<br />
<br />
there will be john's menu
<br />
<br />
just one item
<br />
it changes every week
<br />
so if you go to the market and think
<br />
i want to do this with that
<br />
do it and put it on the menu
<br />
i will not taste test it
<br />
that is the challenge
<br />
each person has their fans
<br />
john's fans will order john's menu
<br />
and tell you if it is good or not
<br />
also
<br />
this is john's knife rack now
<br />
and only john's knives are on it
<br />
and you should also think about getting your blowfish license
<br />
-
<br />
if my mentor really follows through with this plan
<br />
it will be a very big deal
<br />
in my world of washing dishes
<br />
and plating pickles
<br />
<br />
-
<br />
there is a certain flavor to languages
<br />
the flavor of japanese i really like
<br />
especially when explaining things
<br />
or processes
<br />
tastes great
<br />
less filling
<br />
american english
<br />
tastes smooth and flowing
<br />
like caramel
<br />
those good ones with the marshmallow in them
<br />
that they sell at the counter of drug stores
<br />
the effciency and flow of english is it's charm
<br />
i havent decided what japanese tastes like yet
<br />
but it's charm lies in individual words more than it's flow
<br />
words that contain so much meaning
<br />
it takes years to grasp their nuance
<br />
people say i speak beautiful japanese
<br />
probably because of my background in flow
<br />
what i want to speak is brutal japanese
<br />
so deft in it's effciency and word choice
<br />
that it is moving
<br />
but
<br />
that will take a long time
<br />
<br />
9.3.09
<br />
There is a kind of laundry drying shelter on the roof of my apartment.
<br />
I hung a hammock there.
<br />
I sit in the hammock and smoke my pipe.
<br />
Tonight it started raining heavily
<br />
and some of the neon on a far away building was flickering
<br />
i have a ftp client and a text editor in my pocket, i thought
<br />
i can tell people
<br />
about the neon
<br />
<br />
8.31.08
<br />
shikoku bike bonanza
<br />
<br />
bicycles are super efficient
<br />
traveling by boat is cheap and wonderful
<br />
we slept in parks and an internet cafe twice
<br />
i liked sleeping in parks but every bit of skin needs to be covered
<br />
and even then you get bitten by mosquitos
<br />
there are no mosquitos near flowing water
<br />
there are the most mostquitos in cities
<br />
the only things you need to carry:
<br />
tools, two pairs of socks and underwear, three layers, wallet, sungaurd, a water skin
<br />
things that are nice to have:
<br />
sleeping mat, gps cellphone with highspeed internet, rope, snacks, camera, water key, maps
<br />
riding 60km a day is easy
<br />
riding 60km on hills is really tiring, but it is temporary
<br />
riding 160km (about 12 hours) is tiring
<br />
matsuyama is a college town and is filled with beautiful women
<br />
takamatsu had no real charm
<br />
little towns on the expressway suck
<br />
little towns in the hills are cool
<br />
a 300 yen watermelon from a road stand was the best part of the trip for me
<br />
a 300 yen watermelon from a road stand was the best part of another trip i took too (!)
<br />
being homeless is easy
<br />
public baths are awesome but expensive (480yen a pop)
<br />
katsuo no tataki in kochi really lived up to the hype
<br />
breakfast is important for energy
<br />
bananas
<br />
john hit is head on a metal part of a pole just above his eye and left of his temple
<br />
it could have been very very bad
<br />
he was very lucky
<br />
old men stopped their cars ahead of us and took pictures with very pro cameras almost every day
<br />
something always went bump in the night
<br />
freedom is a very powerful and addictive feeling
<br />
the road next to the shimanto river is abandoned and beautiful
<br />
downhill feels amazing
<br />
i wish sleeping outside was legal and safe in america
<br />
i wish biking was more accepted in america
<br />
<br />
<br />
<br />
8.7.08
<br />
today i bought
<br />
a camera
<br />
a gps
<br />
a mp3 player
<br />
a wifi internet browser device
<br />
a celluar internet modem
<br />
a radio
<br />
an ip phone
<br />
a personal organizer
<br />
a video player
<br />
except they are all one device
<br />
and that device is a cell phone
<br />
with a replacable battery
<br />
and
<br />
copy and paste
<br />
<br />
i bought a nokia n95 because my old phone broke
<br />
if you think the iphone is hot shit check out the other smart phones
<br />
<br />
<br />
8.2.08
<br />
rocks
<br />
i can see how it would be easy to start a rock collection
<br />
in fact in my life ive started many
<br />
life is a series of rock collections
<br />
<br />
money
<br />
if you hate money
<br />
it is nice to be able to make it unseen
<br />
by putting it somewhere that doesnt even physically exist
<br />
it is just a concept that can be quantified on a computer of an atm
<br />
if you hate money it is nice to never even touch it
<br />
and when you have to use it to never think about it
<br />
<br />
animals
<br />
people look like animals
<br />
sometimes it strikes me how wierd it is that we are all wearing clothes
<br />
and hiding in buildings
<br />
and doing things like
<br />
blushing
<br />
making myths
<br />
working for things other than survival
<br />
<br />
aji
<br />
means flavor in japanese
<br />
but is used to describe patena
<br />
this rock has great flavor coming out
<br />
to make flavor come out of rocks you water them every day
<br />
to make flavor come out of a knife you use it every day
<br />
flavor is not something you can buy, unless you want someone else's flavor
<br />
some people love flavor and value it
<br />
other people want flavor to not exist
<br />
these are teflon people
<br />
faces have flavor
<br />
jeans have flavor
<br />
toilets
<br />
bars of soap
<br />
coat hangers
<br />
the marks left by repetitive use, however long or short
<br />
make up
<br />
disposable
<br />
most coatings
<br />
public persona/private persona dicotomy
<br />
air fresheners
<br />
these things are anti-flavor
<br />
<br />
7.15.08
<br />
things i fantasized showing a fictional tv show that visits people's houses at random:
<br />
how i make yogurt
<br />
my book collection
<br />
selected bizzare seasonings
<br />
knives
<br />
a collection of dried fish skin that i had arranged
<br />
my herb garden
<br />
the contents of my refrigerator
<br />
my 100% nutritionally complete breakfast schematic
<br />
my object appreciation pedistal
<br />
a slab of marble
<br />
<br />
7.8.08
<br />
black rain
<br />
rewatch
<br />
filmed in osaka
<br />
after meeting the location scout
<br />
it makes it different after living here
<br />
but not very
<br />
like LA filmed by the bad betamaxs of NHK
<br />
<br />
7.7.08
<br />
i bought shampoo today
<br />
it was really exciting
<br />
dont know why
<br />
but i really like looking for something
<br />
and then finding something that is what i was looking for
<br />
and then buying it
<br />
<br />
if i didnt have to pay rent
<br />
i use so little money every month
<br />
i get food from the restaurant
<br />
i ride a bike everywhere
<br />
the shampoo i bought was worth the same as
<br />
30 eggs
<br />
which would make 15 days of lunch
<br />
<br />
i kept a list of things i bought last month
<br />
trash bags
<br />
cucumbers
<br />
onions
<br />
a bar of soap
<br />
a meter of chain
<br />
a bottle of beer
<br />
sandpaper
<br />
and a few other things
<br />
<br />
all kinds of great stuff comes from people i know
<br />
which is just how it works in Japan
<br />
what they get in return is work from me
<br />
and gifts that i regift in strategic ways
<br />
<br />
i just need to get rid of the rent
<br />
<br />
7.3.08
<br />
my ideal blog would be
<br />
a page that sits on the server that is passoword protected
<br />
and can be acessed from any browser
<br />
it only has a few functions
<br />
new post, delete post, upload image, number of posts to display on main page
<br />
it is all text interface
<br />
it generates a simple html file that mimicks hand coding
<br />
all style related elements are delegated to a style sheet
<br />
no templates or fancy bullshit
<br />
im working on writing this software
<br />
the database is kept in text file seperated by month only
<br />
<br />
<br />
7.2.08
<br />
<br />
a'?a,ea??azz
<br />
the people surrounding me
<br />
are very useful
<br />
they help me understand things
<br />
that cant be understood internally
<br />
the price i pay for these revelations
<br />
is time
<br />
lots of time
<br />
they told me i was too honest
<br />
that to fit in in japanese cultue
<br />
i have to
<br />
"put mud on my head"
<br />
which in amercia is summed up with the phrase
<br />
"it's not you it's me"
<br />
so i am preparing various kinds of mud to put on
<br />
<br />
7.1.08
<br />
<br />
i went to a far away school today
<br />
it was a beautiful day
<br />
more than anything i wanted to climb the mountain behind the school
<br />
but i was stuck doing busy work
<br />
and the children didnt know they were trapped in the school
<br />
i remember the distinct feeling of being trapped at school
<br />
and thinking about all the great things i could be doing
<br />
on a beautiful day
<br />
like today
<br />
<br />
6.29.08
<br />
when you learn japanese in the kitchens of osaka
<br />
you learn a very specialized japanese that most average people cant understand
<br />
and you can amaze people with your knowledge about japanese culture as long as it is related to food
<br />
but you can still mess up and mistake one for two
<br />
and yes for no
<br />
but you can always speak english to people and make them feel how you feel all the time
<br />
it is really hard to change from japanese mode to english mode
<br />
i dont think i could ever do silmutanious translation
<br />
speaking japanese is like seeing a color that doesnt exist to people who speak english
<br />
and then trying to describe a color they have never seen to someone
<br />
is really hard
<br />
you end up have to compromise, or tell them all of the culture behind a single translation
<br />
im sure that most translators just give them the best aproxomation
<br />
<br />
6.27.08
<br />
<br />
another long/short week
<br />
feels really long, but goes by fast
<br />
i had a meeting to "tie the roots"
<br />
in order to pull a giant portable shrine
<br />
they ordered me a happi coat
<br />
this is the same connection who introduced me to the cooking job
<br />
i owe him a lot
<br />
of gratitude
<br />
and another friend of mine
<br />
who pays millions of dollars in taxes
<br />
wants to hang out more
<br />
and the govener's cronie keeps calling me
<br />
to hang out at his favorite okinawan restaurant
<br />
im not sure what i've gotten myself into
<br />
but maybe it will mean not having to sell it weekdays for a visa
<br />
just to do what i want (work) on the weekends
<br />
and have no days off in between
<br />
<br />
why is your nose so tall?
<br />
is something that i get asked all the time
<br />
from adults and kids
<br />
so tall
<br />
my nose
<br />
<br />
the internet is reaching a point now where it is so useful
<br />
that you can be so picky about what you want to find
<br />
and still find it
<br />
it is making me more of a configurist
<br />
but i cant keep up with it
<br />
and my creativity is lagging behind it's usfullness
<br />
so i'll have to give up configurism and fight back
<br />
with minimalism
<br />
im already winning
<br />
but craigslist still has me beat
<br />
<br />
<!-- pie pan is a pan to put pie in. paipan is a shaved snatch. be careful when asking for a pie pan at japanese stores-->
<br />
<br />
6.22.08
<br />
<br />
i had a bad day at work
<br />
followed by a good day at work
<br />
it is hard to do pure japanese stuff
<br />
it is so alien
<br />
i need to keep up my connections
<br />
i get in a bad habit of not contacting people
<br />
that i want, and should, keep in touch with
<br />
im sorry
<br />
<br />
6.20.08
<br />
<br />
i had some really good <a href="http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Takoyaki">takoyaki</a> just now
<br />
they included little crispy bits of deep fried beef back fat
<br />
what a great idea
<br />
6 for 300yen
<br />
<!--cant stop thinking about women recently. it's an annoying instinct. thinking about them does nothing useful. i need to eat some saltpeter. but i heard that was a myth-->
<br />
<br />
6.19.08
<br />
<br />
the bike parking police stole my bike
<br />
cut my 6000yen lock
<br />
and charged me 2500yen to get it out of impound
<br />
i told them they were bad people
<br />
and they should get jobs that are not based on making people unhappy, damaging property, and inconveniencing people
<br />
<br />
i bought half a meter of "boat chain"
<br />
there was no way you could cut it without leverage from the floor and a 80kg japanese man
<br />
the guy fell down a few times while cutting it for me
<br />
1500yen
<br />
i got an ok lock
<br />
500yen
<br />
then i went to the bike shop and asked for a punctured tube
<br />
i put the chain in the tube
<br />
and put the lock in some tube so it wouldnt damage my bike
<br />
i wanted to lock my bike to the front gate of the impound lot
<br />
or report my bike stolen and lead the police to them (with cut lock and bolt cutters! red handed!)
<br />
<br />
i met a monk on a mountain
<br />
he is running a temple all alone
<br />
at the top
<br />
we exchanged hellos and i asked him
<br />
what do you think of money?
<br />
and he said
<br />
money was made by people but not all things made by people are bad (like money)
<br />
why, take roads for example
<br />
but animals make roads too
<br />
without even knowing it
<br />
why, take deer for example
<br />
today i want you to meditate on this
<br />
if man could make money like deer make roads
<br />
he said to me
<br />
<br />
bicycle seats suck
<br />
they are made out of sponges
<br />
and when it rains they get wet
<br />
so im making one out of leather and silicon
<br />
leftovers from the bag
<br />
<br />
i have tried so many times to keep my place clean. what is the trick exactly?
<br />
<br />
<!--
<br />
i broke up with manami the day before i met the monk
<br />
i asked him about companionship
<br />
and he said
<br />
life is made up of experiences
<br />
companionship is an experience
<br />
loniliness is an experience
<br />
you told me you like the sun
<br />
but you liked to be soaked by the rain
<br />
<br />
that was all he really said
<br />
then he made me lunch
<br />
<br />
i met a woman there
<br />
she came out of nowhere
<br />
and asked me
<br />
what are you currently enduring?
<br />
enduring in japanese means having patcience, waiting
<br />
well, a lot of things
<br />
are you really enduring?
<br />
well, i wont know until i am no longer enduring and have reached the pay off
<br />
if there is no pay off then i wasnt enduring
<br />
i was just moving forward
<br />
that was assigned as my second meditation
<br />
if all payoffs are equal what is patcience?
<br />
-->
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11.5.09 <br /> <br /> bought a new computer for the first time in 8 years <br /> it is exactly the same but totally fast <br /> i can actually use youtube now! <br /> it is an exciting world of youtube <br /> also plays nice with my tv <br /> and has a remote control <br /> and is totally silent <br /> go computers 10.12.08 <br /> nothing 10.12.09 <br /> nothing im constantly getting rid of stuff <br /> i want to try to get rid of everything <br /> but it is really hard to justify when my apartment is $600 a month <br /> and i can put all the stuff i want in it <br /> and books <br /> BOOKs <br /> are really hard to figure out <br /> they have important information that i need but can't put in my head <br /> what should i do with the books? <br /> i researched kerosene heaters and humidifiers today <br /> but ended up just getting disgusted and giving up on the idea all together <br /> which happens more often than not <br /> i think one of the best ideas ever <br /> is to make something from nothing using only time <br /> for example cheese or bread or wine or soy sauce or salt <br /> i have a hard on for evaporation and fermentation <br /> i know <br /> but also keeping on the cutting edge of the exact opposite <br /> and avoiding everything in between if possible <br /> for example ipods are bad <br /> because they dont do anything perfectly <br /> where as a bottle opener does one thing perfectly. forever. <br /> and yeast does one thing perfectly forever <br /> books also do one thing perfectly forever but they take up a lot more space than yeast <br /> obviously more thought should be alotted to this subject <br /> <br /> 7.31.08 <br /> <br /> &#12496;&#12459;&#26053;&#34892; fool's travel <br /> <br /> I will be in america for two weeks. <br /> I'm a practitioner of fool's travel. <br /> two sets of clothes. no planning. <br /> the only thing i bring is a lot of money and a camera. <br /> hand out the souvenirs and my suitcase will be empty. <br /> gonna buy lots of food and clothes and books. <br /> looking forward to seeing everyone. <br /> my longest vacation in 3 years. im constantly getting rid of stuff <br /> i want to try to get rid of everything <br /> but it is really hard to justify when my apartment is $600 a month <br /> and i can put all the stuff i want in it <br /> and books <br /> BOOKs <br /> are really hard to figure out <br /> they have important information that i need but can't put in my head <br /> what should i do with the books? <br /> i researched kerosene heaters and humidifiers today <br /> but ended up just getting disgusted and giving up on the idea all together <br /> which happens more often than not <br /> i think one of the best ideas ever <br /> is to make something from nothing using only time <br /> for example cheese or bread or wine or soy sauce or salt <br /> i have a hard on for evaporation and fermentation <br /> i know <br /> but also keeping on the cutting edge of the exact opposite <br /> and avoiding everything in between if possible <br /> for example ipods are bad <br /> because they dont do anything perfectly <br /> where as a bottle opener does one thing perfectly. forever. <br /> and yeast does one thing perfectly forever <br /> books also do one thing perfectly forever but they take up a lot more space than yeast <br /> obviously more thought should be alotted to this subject <br /> <br /> 7.31.08 <br /> <br /> &#12496;&#12459;&#26053;&#34892; fool's travel <br /> <br /> I will be in america for two weeks. <br /> I'm a practitioner of fool's travel. <br /> two sets of clothes. no planning. <br /> the only thing i bring is a lot of money and a camera. <br /> hand out the souvenirs and my suitcase will be empty. <br /> gonna buy lots of food and clothes and books. <br /> looking forward to seeing everyone. <br /> my longest vacation in 3 years. 6.5.09 <br /> <br /> bakuhatsu <br /> <br /> i have lots of things to talk to you about <br /> lots of exciting things <br /> she said <br /> <br /> i boiled the sardines <br /> went to the markets <br /> got asked the real questions by kids <br /> <br /> there is no better job than cook <br /> there is no better business than running a restaurant <br /> there is no fish more delicious than sardine <br /> <br /> i sat and talked with the highschool girl for an hour or so <br /> isn't there anything that you want? <br /> no <br /> <br /> she called me excitedly <br /> im here and im happy and im doing things <br /> im happy for you. what can i do? <br /> be there, be happy, and be doing things <br /> <br /> 4.23.09 <br /> <br /> pink moment <br /> <br /> met someone interesting for the first time in a long while <br /> she used to do wound special effects in LA <br /> and was obsessed with DJ shadow <br /> in that way that japanese people seem to get obsessed with things <br /> but she is the only person i have met that is busier than i am (!) <br /> which means i can meet her for the second time at the end of may <br /> which is a long time to wait <br /> to see how interesting she really is <br /> <br /> ive been super productive lately <br /> but my day is divided into the time when i can do absolutely nothing <br /> and my super productive time <br /> the switch between the two is tiring to say the least <br /> mostly ive been: modifying clothes, cooking, raising plants, planning a movable feast, decorating my apartment, simplifying, tuning bikes, reading lots of huge reference books on cooking, working on my wayfarer tan. <br /> peace in da middle of denise 6.5.09 <br /> <br /> bakuhatsu <br /> <br /> i have lots of things to talk to you about <br /> lots of exciting things <br /> she said <br /> <br /> i boiled the sardines <br /> went to the markets <br /> got asked the real questions by kids <br /> <br /> there is no better job than cook <br /> there is no better business than running a restaurant <br /> there is no fish more delicious than sardine <br /> <br /> i sat and talked with the highschool girl for an hour or so <br /> isn't there anything that you want? 3.23.09 <br /> <br /> cook's podcast ideas <br /> <br /> dont talk about how sharp your knives are <br /> or how hot shit your restaurant is because it has big bucks backing it <br /> so you have 99% organic produce all from farmers you contract <br /> just talk about what you are doing, how and why you are doing it <br /> it is a cook's podcast for cooks. <br /> talk about things that you like that are going on <br /> and things you don't like <br /> talk about being a cook as work 20% of the time and food the rest <br /> <br /> 2.10.09 <br /> the people <br /> <br /> on my way to work i see the folowing people: <br /> <br /> a woman who is always getting her bicycle out of a garage of a shuttered house <br /> a man who wears sun glasses. i see him as i cross a large intersection every day <br /> the woman who is always wearing some type of scarf <br /> the man with long dark grey hair who is always riding a bike in front of my school <br /> the smiley man on my way home. why is he smiling? <br /> etc <br /> <br /> 1.21.09 <br /> <br /> there is neat system in japan <br /> whereas you can buy stuff online and have it delived to a convinence store instead of your house <br /> and then you can go pick it up at any time 24hs a day <br /> and it's free <br /> <br /> &#65279;1.16.09 <br /> make tortillas <br /> <br /> i dont know when i first got the notion to make tortillas <br /> it was some time right before university started <br /> i never understood corn tortialls before <br /> they always used them at the flea market taco trucks <br /> but they had an unusual taste to them <br /> then i tried making them <br /> and eating them <br /> still hot, steaming in a towel <br /> with grilled flank <br /> and salsa <br /> i made tortillas today <br /> with flax seeds in them <br /> making tortillas is good <br /> let's make tortillas <br /> <br /> 1.12.09 <br /> i have a <a href="http://www.siliconbobulon.com/podcast/podcast.xml">podcast</a> <br /> remember that? <br /> i updated it <br /> <br /> 1.7.09 <br /> ajiwaukoto <br /> <br /> short peace <br /> vietnamese drip <br /> shokou shu <br /> amontilliado <br /> ofuro <br /> nag champa <br /> jinko <br /> water <br /> <br /> 1.4.09 <br /> in a world where "what's that?" is no longer a relevant question <br /> 2009 <br /> <br /> 12.9.08 <br /> you can have everything <br /> <br /> ojai summer 2005 <br /> we took a hike to a swimming hole <br /> which is already a very fetishized idea <br /> from my father's time not mine <br /> it was a long hike and we were not prepared <br /> we didnt have enough water and it was extremely hot <br /> we got to the swimming hole and there were some guys jumping off rocks <br /> which seemed kind of scary <br /> so we hiked a little more <br /> and came to a spot with large smooth rocks and some water <br /> the sun was getting low <br /> and we sat on the rocks absorbing their heat <br /> we all sort of sat seperatly <br /> i dont know if the other people were thinking about all the things i was thinking about <br /> life and death <br /> and everything <br /> it was one of those moments <br /> when you feel everything <br /> you know that something very important is happening <br /> <br /> you can have everything (if you want it) <br /> everything exists (even love) <br /> <br /> and when you think back on that moment <br /> it is similar to the feeling you have <br /> when you listen to the best song ever <br /> we walked back to the car <br /> on the way back i couldnt stop thinking about that spot <br /> where i had experienced something <br /> but i couldnt share it with anyone <br /> we got in the car and started to drive home <br /> i looked at her and she smiled <br /> <br /> <br /> 12.8.08 <br /> i like what you've done with the place <br /> <br /> waves <br /> beating down the waves <br /> <br /> get the internet <br /> and you start to realize that there is information <br /> on everything <br /> and it is linked to everything <br /> you start seeing this information in your everyday life <br /> for example <br /> a rash <br /> this could be a symptom <br /> surely there is information on the internet about this <br /> whoah bad idea <br /> then you sort of get a feel for the way things are connected <br /> you know what kind of results you will find without even searching <br /> and it starts to get even further abstracted <br /> you start imagining everything <br /> linked to everything <br /> which is something <br /> that is very problimatic to internalize <br /> <br /> do you feel that you are viewing yourself from the 3rd person sometimes? <br /> yes <br /> and you are totally out of control of your own actions? <br /> no, never <br /> then what? <br /> just the reverse, i am totally in control and everyone around me is out of control <br /> what's controlling them? <br /> stuff, mostly <br /> what do you feel when you see yourself? <br /> that i am in on the joke <br /> and who is playing the joke? <br /> everyone is playing the joke on eachother <br /> how did you escape it then? <br /> i guess i wasnt interested in the lead in bit, <br /> you know the part where a guy walks into a bar. <br /> what's the punchline of the joke? <br /> a guy walks into a bar. OUCH! <br /> death? <br /> yeah, death <br /> but you cant escape death, even if you don't care about the joke <br /> yeah, but caring about the joke takes a hell of a lot of concentration <br /> in fact all of it <br /> and when you stop concetrating you start to realize everything going on around you <br /> you start to see you <br /> from outside of you <br /> <br /> 11.13.08 <br /> inonakanokaeru <br /> the frog in the well <br /> <br /> knows not of the great ocean <br /> it is futile to tell it about the ocean <br /> <br /> you can be free! <br /> but it's futile <br /> <br /> hi there im from the ocean <br /> and even though you were very close to me <br /> to you leaveing the well was stepping off the edge of a flat earth <br /> <br /> 11.12.08 <br /> peace and hope <br /> <br /> and kanpeace <br /> 50 peaces(pieces?) in a can <br /> id have to say that the last few months have not been a particullary good streak <br /> just sort of average <br /> scatterd with half promises i half kept <br /> and dotted with moments of trying really hard <br /> and not trying at all <br /> if i could just keep a few promises all of the time <br /> and try minimally hard most of the some <br /> i wonder what would happen? <br /> <br /> promise #31 <br /> touch no money <br /> <br /> i currently have no money in my wallet <br /> i havent had any for a week <br /> i want to see if i can go a month <br /> without touching money <br /> except that i have money somewhere in my bag in case i see something really shiney <br /> <br /> promise #7 <br /> learn japanese <br /> <br /> i look up tens of words every day in my dictionary <br /> words that ive heard at least once before get saved in the memo <br /> i then put them into an awesome flashcard program called <br /> genius <br /> and the i review them every night before i go to bed <br /> except i don't <br /> and it only happens a few days a month <br /> <br /> promise#55 <br /> keep my apartment clean all the time <br /> <br /> im sure you all know how this one goes <br /> my strategy is to have nothing <br /> so i have nothing to get messy <br /> but dishes <br /> dishes! <br /> <br /> 11.11.08 <br /> dear internet bros <br /> <br /> i need some allsorts licorice <br /> for eating <br /> can you send me some? <br /> that probably costs you money <br /> i will give you this money <br /> <br /> 11.3.08 <br /> climbed and climbed <br /> finally came over the hill <br /> started to gather momentum <br /> the bike stabilized <br /> took my hands off the handle <br /> stood my body up straight <br /> closed my eyes <br /> and waited <br /> for as long as i could take it <br /> i opened my eyes and i was still going straight <br /> tried it again <br /> was totally off track <br /> you never know <br /> <br /> <br /> 10.31.08 <br /> jeez jeez haruki murakami in japanese <br /> <br /> im reading my first novel in japanese <br /> it takes me less time to read a page in japanese than it does in english <br /> but that is only when i know how to read everything on the page <br /> when i dont <br /> it takes 5 minutes <br /> <br /> entry aborted <br /> <br /> 10.26.08 <br /> <a href="http://www.theselby.com">things in artists houses</a> <br /> <br /> sewing machine <br /> taxidermied animals <br /> records <br /> wall of pictures in different frames <br /> things hanging from the ceiling <br /> macs <br /> nudes / sexual things on display <br /> huge bookshelves full of art books <br /> leicas <br /> porcelin kitch <br /> new york apartments <br /> old tools <br /> suitcases <br /> photos/paintings/drawings of themselves <br /> beautiful siginificant others <br /> always non-standard light fixtures <br /> old photos <br /> magazine collections <br /> nice shoes <br /> bikes <br /> skulls/skeletons/human figures <br /> <br /> <br /> 10.23.08 <br /> an excerpt from my post apocalyptic novel <br /> <br /> the fire in the neighborhood near the house i am staying in now really scared me <br /> who knows what caused it <br /> probably some rotten battery or a magnifying glass in a windowsill <br /> but it's still burning <br /> todays plan: <br /> blow up all the houses around my house and burn them one by one <br /> then i will bulldoze the rubble somewhere and collect plants from the nursaries <br /> this week i am exploring block S-32 on the map <br /> most of that block is taken up by a jr highschool <br /> i always imagined finding other people and starting a commune in an old school <br /> but it still freaks me out to go to one that is totally empty. <br /> this month i have to go to tokyo <br /> i am hoping to find the offices of google intact <br /> there they have a cache of the text of all the websites they index <br /> this will go into the library i am building back in osaka <br /> driving is always dangerous because of the animals <br /> the route is mostly clear but if i run into a pack of tanuki it could be all over <br /> and the last time i tried to teach myself to fly i almost killed myself <br /> there has been a smell spreading over the city over the last week <br /> a very metallic smell <br /> it is coming from the water i figured out <br /> i pumped some out of the main that i always use and it reeked <br /> it must be the activity of some bacteria <br /> but the water is no longer safe to drink <br /> i will go back to distilling rainwater <br /> the place i am living now is a pre ww2 mansion <br /> i heard stories that durin the war the old man who lived here alone would come out <br /> to sell tresures he had collected for whatever food he could find <br /> everyone was starving <br /> after the war his house was taken by the govenment, slowly, by the new tax system <br /> and turned into a museum parody of itself that was only open on the first sunday of the month <br /> the house is getting pretty full <br /> i still can't help myself, i bring home all kinds of stuff <br /> i have raided all the museums and after i found the explosives raided everything else <br /> even after 3 years i have still only explored 1.3% of what i can reach by car in a day <br /> there is plenty of food <br /> but the 3 year rice tastes pretty bad compared to what i used to eat <br /> there are still more sardines in cans than there are in the ocean <br /> <br /> <br /> <br /> 10.21.08 <br /> never work (for money) again - thought 1 <br /> <br /> not working for money is even harder work than working for money <br /> ya get my drift? <br /> <br /> start by "owning" the things you dont own <br /> you don't own the electricty or other utilities <br /> these can be described as things you lease <br /> you don't even own the property that you may think you "own" <br /> the govenment owns your property and you lease it from them every year when you pay property taxes <br /> you certainly don't own your identity in the way we know it now <br /> your id cards, birth certificate, etc are your identity and they are not yours <br /> <br /> there are some things you cant, or won't want to own. <br /> for example owning water means you need to own land with the well on it <br /> these things go on the list of things that are essentially free <br /> not free as in beer <br /> but free as in air <br /> <br /> living in a system that uses money means you will have to rely on the system's leaks <br /> dumpster diving <br /> charity <br /> the blind spots of society <br /> loopholes <br /> feedback loops <br /> <br /> if you use the remaining money you have as a "monied" person you can set up a good loop <br /> for example renting out a property you own to pay it's taxes and upkeep <br /> live in a small shelter on the same property <br /> this is a money loop you never have to touch, it takes care of its self for the most part <br /> that leaves you <br /> <br /> so now you have to worry about you <br /> without money you will die <br /> you will die before you would die if you had money <br /> no money to pay for healthcare means just that <br /> if you participate in whatever welfare system there is you can extend your life <br /> <br /> there are a lot of ways to do it <br /> so quit your job today <br /> <br /> 10.19.08 <br /> shower <br /> <br /> wash hair with massage brush <br /> wash face with scrub <br /> brush teeth / scrape toungue <br /> wash body with puff <br /> shave <br /> wash nose again <br /> dry <br /> apply pore stuff (wait 5 min) <br /> apply antiperspirant <br /> apply conditioner <br /> dress <br /> apply face lotion with spf <br /> <br /> way too complicated <br /> <br /> 10.2.08(cusp) <br /> a portrait of a john, 25 years old <br /> <br /> another day <br /> another dollar <br /> another ring around the collar <br /> <br /> i'll be twenty five <br /> tomorrow <br /> i'll put my thoughts here <br /> and then look at them next year <br /> <br /> people are more important <br /> people are really easy to read <br /> this year people were really important <br /> <br /> things are less important <br /> throw them away <br /> and you will be free <br /> <br /> collect tools <br /> knowledge is a tool <br /> but only the good tools <br /> the proven tools <br /> and the new tools <br /> whose relivency can be determined <br /> by experience <br /> <br /> you are lucky <br /> very lucky <br /> but that is also a burden <br /> <br /> do whatever you can do <br /> to keep your mind sharp <br /> <br /> vanity is stupid <br /> don't participate in it <br /> <br /> you can work every day <br /> you can never work <br /> either way you will survive <br /> because you are participating in a system <br /> which prevents failure <br /> <br /> damn, i dont have the right inspiration <br /> to write this now <br /> goodnight 24 <br /> <br /> <br /> 9.30.08 <br /> a conversation i had with my father in a dream <br /> <br /> what was it like to be a janitor? <br /> is was the best ever. <br /> what was so great about it? <br /> well basically you sleep all day go into the school after most people leave <br /> wax the hallways and vacuume the classrooms <br /> wipe down the blackboards <br /> thats about it <br /> you have your own office <br /> and if you are effcient you can finnish cleaning and just sleep until it's time to go home <br /> and it's govenment so you get health benifits etc <br /> i can imagine nowadays if you brought a laptop it could be great <br /> yeah <br /> so why did you leave it? <br /> basically i needed more money for the family and you just sort of get burned out <br /> you can only goof off for so long in the same place before people get uptight <br /> i bet the atmosphere of a school at night is pretty good <br /> all the energy of the kids is sort of soaked into the walls and floors <br /> the air is thick with constuction paper and the smell of sunshine coming from the big windows <br /> yeah, you really notice the seasons for some reason <br /> sure beats being a teacher <br /> <br /> --- <br /> <br /> what did you just say? <br /> she called me excitedly <br /> im here and im happy and im doing things <br /> im happy for you. what can i do? <br /> be there, be happy, and be doing things <br /> <br /> 4.23.09 <br /> <br /> pink moment <br /> <br /> met someone interesting for the first time in a long while <br /> she used to do wound special effects in LA <br /> and was obsessed with DJ shadow <br /> in that way that japanese people seem to get obsessed with things <br /> but she is the only person i have met that is busier than i am (!) <br /> which means i can meet her for the second time at the end of may <br /> which is a long time to wait <br /> to see how interesting she really is <br /> <br /> ive been super productive lately <br /> but my day is divided into the time when i can do absolutely nothing <br /> and my super productive time <br /> the switch between the two is tiring to say the least <br /> mostly ive been: modifying clothes, cooking, raising plants, planning a movable feast, decorating my apartment, simplifying, tuning bikes, reading lots of huge reference books on cooking, working on my wayfarer tan. <br /> peace in da middle of denise what did you just say! <br /> you just said it! <br /> the word! <br /> i was trying to think of <br /> <br /> --- <br /> <br /> when my alarm went off this morning <br /> i was lying on my back <br /> and the tip of my nose was cold <br /> really cold <br /> i opened my eyes and the light was blinding so i closed them <br /> and i saw floating in front of me black text on a white background <br /> its format was that of an email <br /> it was from julia <br /> and the topic of the letter was fall <br /> the first line applogized for the appearence of the text <br /> it was the best she could find on short notice <br /> the rest of the letter was written in my style not her's <br /> and went something like this: <br /> you look down at the rain in the gutter from the open car door <br /> some bright pink chewed up gum is tumbling down the stream <br /> in your mind you see a colorful flashing neon sign <br /> and you smell the smell of being hit in the head <br /> hard <br /> plus the smell of liquid <a href="http://www.pharmaceutical-drug-manufacturers.com/gifs/amoxicillin.jpg">amoxicillin</a> <br /> then the sound of whoppers being shaken in the box can be heard <br /> and you see the front of a dentist's office <br /> where the japanese maple is very striking in its fall colors <br /> you smell the smoke from a chimney <br /> but you know it is the firewood heating a bath <br /> then blood of an animal being spilled <br /> a burrito on a white plate <br /> and crying <br /> <br /> 9.26.08 <br /> moving to japan helped me realize a lot of my dreams <br /> working in a japanese restaurant was one of them <br /> i am making a section of this website devoted to that <br /> <a href="../washoku/">washoku</a> <br /> <br /> 9.23.08 <br /> somewhere something is spinning very fast <br /> it's spinning <br /> somewhere something is burning very hot <br /> it's burning 3.23.09 <br /> <br /> cook's podcast ideas <br /> <br /> dont talk about how sharp your knives are <br /> or how hot shit your restaurant is because it has big bucks backing it <br /> so you have 99% organic produce all from farmers you contract <br /> just talk about what you are doing, how and why you are doing it <br /> it is a cook's podcast for cooks. <br /> talk about things that you like that are going on <br /> and things you don't like <br /> talk about being a cook as work 20% of the time and food the rest <br /> <br /> 2.10.09 <br /> the people <br /> <br /> on my way to work i see the folowing people: <br /> <br /> a woman who is always getting her bicycle out of a garage of a shuttered house <br /> a man who wears sun glasses. i see him as i cross a large intersection every day <br /> the woman who is always wearing some type of scarf <br /> the man with long dark grey hair who is always riding a bike in front of my school <br /> the smiley man on my way home. why is he smiling? 9.17.09 <br /> pineapple seeds <br /> <br /> i bought a pine apple and ate it <br /> the whole thing in one go <br /> the strange thing was that it had seeds <br /> little black hard seeds near the skin <br /> so i threw them in a pot <br /> and a few days later i have pineapple sprouts <br /> does anyone want a pineapple plant? <br /> they are bromeliads <br /> they will grow you pineapples <br /> <br /> 9.16.09 <br /> tsukimi <br /> <br /> the moon controls the tides <br /> it controls the inner juices of man <br /> once you see it you can't unsee it <br /> yet every time you see it <br /> it's new <br /> because it's so far away <br /> because there's so much stuff between you and it <br /> so why can perception be like viewing the moon <br /> if you look at the mona lisa once <br /> you've seen the mona lisa <br /> if you back 10 years later <br /> and you look at the mona lisa <br /> it's the same mona lisa <br /> because there's no physical stuff between you and it <br /> nothing perceptable <br /> with your eyes <br /> like the moon <br /> if we could make all of that stuff that we can't see <br /> that we can't perceive <br /> like that stuff between us and the moon <br /> then we could look at something for the first time <br /> every time <br /> <br /> 9.15.09 <br /> today i bought hundreds of dollars of new bedding <br /> a 90% goose down comforter <br /> hemp comforter cover, matching pillow cases <br /> two soba pillows <br /> jersey fit sheet <br /> cotton mattress pad with 3D baffel design <br /> i ran around all day, but saved a ton of money in doing so <br /> i didn't know anything about bedding until this morning <br /> with the power of the internet a hour of research will bring you up to speed on anything <br /> now i will surely sleep in supreme comfort this winter <br /> <br /> 9.12.09 <br /> i found the new thickest ramen ever <br /> there is clearly a cauldron of bones boiling away behind the counter <br /> imagine delcious elmers glue <br /> with noodles in it <br /> so good <br /> you can get replacement noodles for 100 yen <br /> if you eat all the noodles <br /> one bowl of the soup would be enough to make 2 gallons of flavorful collard greens <br /> and the name is <br /> muteppou <br /> which means <br /> no gun <br /> <br /> 9.11.09 <br /> shaving is a story <br /> <br /> cuture is the stories we tell <br /> is an idea <br /> i was exposed to in university <br /> we tell them with language <br /> (don't tell noam chompsky) <br /> language is a virus <br /> (don't tell laurie anderson or burroughs) <br /> shaving is a story <br /> stories just get better and better <br /> we have the technology now to find the "writers" <br /> of all the stories ever <br /> (dont tell brian eno, or david byrne for that matter) <br /> and they will make them and we will be exposed to them <br /> the internet is a virus <br /> it works on language <br /> what will this do to culture? <br /> <br /> -- <br /> <br /> autopilots <br /> <br /> picture yourself winning the race <br /> is something my swim coach told me when i was a kid <br /> his name was joe <br /> picture yourself moving through the water <br /> picture the walls of the pool <br /> picture the shoes of the spectators on the deck <br /> picture the girl at the supermarket last night <br /> when you remembered you were out of rice <br /> <br /> going on autopilot is a well known phenomenon <br /> you do something without thinking of doing it <br /> in times when you don't want to be doing that thing <br /> or when you have no choice in the matter <br /> <br /> you picture yourself winning the race <br /> the podium <br /> 1.21.09 <br /> <br /> there is neat system in japan <br /> whereas you can buy stuff online and have it delived to a convinence store instead of your house <br /> and then you can go pick it up at any time 24hs a day <br /> and it's free <br /> <br /> &#65279;1.16.09 <br /> make tortillas <br /> <br /> i dont know when i first got the notion to make tortillas <br /> it was some time right before university started <br /> i never understood corn tortialls before <br /> they always used them at the flea market taco trucks <br /> but they had an unusual taste to them <br /> then i tried making them <br /> and eating them <br /> still hot, steaming in a towel <br /> with grilled flank <br /> and salsa <br /> i made tortillas today <br /> with flax seeds in them <br /> making tortillas is good <br /> let's make tortillas <br /> <br /> 1.12.09 <br /> i have a <a href="http://www.siliconbobulon.com/podcast/podcast.xml">podcast</a> <br /> remember that? <br /> i updated it <br /> <br /> 1.7.09 <br /> ajiwaukoto <br /> <br /> short peace <br /> vietnamese drip <br /> shokou shu <br /> amontilliado <br /> ofuro <br /> nag champa <br /> jinko <br /> water <br /> <br /> 1.4.09 <br /> in a world where "what's that?" is no longer a relevant question <br /> 2009 <br /> <br /> 12.9.08 <br /> you can have everything <br /> <br /> ojai summer 2005 <br /> we took a hike to a swimming hole <br /> which is already a very fetishized idea <br /> from my father's time not mine <br /> it was a long hike and we were not prepared <br /> we didnt have enough water and it was extremely hot <br /> we got to the swimming hole and there were some guys jumping off rocks <br /> which seemed kind of scary <br /> so we hiked a little more <br /> and came to a spot with large smooth rocks and some water <br /> the sun was getting low <br /> and we sat on the rocks absorbing their heat <br /> we all sort of sat seperatly <br /> i dont know if the other people were thinking about all the things i was thinking about <br /> life and death <br /> and everything <br /> it was one of those moments <br /> when you feel everything <br /> you know that something very important is happening <br /> <br /> you can have everything (if you want it) <br /> everything exists (even love) <br /> <br /> and when you think back on that moment <br /> it is similar to the feeling you have <br /> when you listen to the best song ever <br /> we walked back to the car <br /> on the way back i couldnt stop thinking about that spot <br /> where i had experienced something <br /> but i couldnt share it with anyone <br /> we got in the car and started to drive home <br /> i looked at her and she smiled and when you hit the water <br /> you think about nothing <br /> <br /> how far can you expand your conciousness <br /> to include as many things as possible <br /> to include the girl in the supermarket <br /> so that you can be present at the controls <br /> when you want to be the pilot <br /> <br /> when you are in the water it is like a replay <br /> of the events you have already pictured <br /> and everything should go as planned <br /> he said <br /> <br /> i went to the store to buy rice <br /> i made complex decissions <br /> and then i came home and realized <br /> when my foot hit the pedal <br /> that i thought of nothing <br /> until i was eating hot rice <br /> <br /> if you try to concentrate on everything all day <br /> you will be very tired at the end <br /> believe me, ive tried it <br /> there are certain times you have to go on autopilot <br /> where you indulge in what zen is searching for <br /> but what if you could focus all the time <br /> and save your ability to think about nothing <br /> for a time when you have nothing to replay <br /> nothing to go as planned <br /> just go on autopilot <br /> in a black box? <br /> <br /> 9.8.09 <br /> living in japan <br /> has helped me view living in america again <br /> with a pre-living in japan kind of wonderlust <br /> 25cent jawbreaker vending machines instead of gachagacha machines <br /> diner food instead of kissaten <br /> diversity instead of monoculture <br /> all seem so new and fresh <br /> exciting <br /> like viewing them for the first time <br /> it is great <br /> perfect almost <br /> two great tastes that taste great together <br /> <br /> 9.7.09 <br /> john <br /> starting from next week there will be a section on the menu <br /> with each individual cook's personal menu <br /> <br /> there will be john's menu <br /> <br /> just one item <br /> it changes every week <br /> so if you go to the market and think <br /> i want to do this with that <br /> do it and put it on the menu <br /> i will not taste test it <br /> that is the challenge <br /> each person has their fans <br /> john's fans will order john's menu <br /> and tell you if it is good or not <br /> also <br /> this is john's knife rack now <br /> and only john's knives are on it <br /> and you should also think about getting your blowfish license <br /> - <br /> if my mentor really follows through with this plan <br /> it will be a very big deal <br /> in my world of washing dishes <br /> and plating pickles <br /> <br /> - <br /> there is a certain flavor to languages <br /> the flavor of japanese i really like <br /> especially when explaining things <br /> or processes <br /> tastes great <br /> less filling <br /> american english <br /> tastes smooth and flowing <br /> like caramel <br /> those good ones with the marshmallow in them <br /> that they sell at the counter of drug stores <br /> the effciency and flow of english is it's charm <br /> i havent decided what japanese tastes like yet <br /> but it's charm lies in individual words more than it's flow <br /> words that contain so much meaning <br /> it takes years to grasp their nuance <br /> people say i speak beautiful japanese <br /> probably because of my background in flow <br /> what i want to speak is brutal japanese <br /> so deft in it's effciency and word choice <br /> that it is moving <br /> but <br /> that will take a long time <br /> <br /> 9.3.09 <br /> There is a kind of laundry drying shelter on the roof of my apartment. <br /> I hung a hammock there. <br /> I sit in the hammock and smoke my pipe. <br /> Tonight it started raining heavily <br /> and some of the neon on a far away building was flickering <br /> i have a ftp client and a text editor in my pocket, i thought <br /> i can tell people <br /> about the neon <br /> <br /> 8.31.08 <br /> shikoku bike bonanza <br /> <br /> bicycles are super efficient <br /> traveling by boat is cheap and wonderful <br /> we slept in parks and an internet cafe twice <br /> i liked sleeping in parks but every bit of skin needs to be covered <br /> and even then you get bitten by mosquitos <br /> there are no mosquitos near flowing water <br /> there are the most mostquitos in cities <br /> the only things you need to carry: <br /> tools, two pairs of socks and underwear, three layers, wallet, sungaurd, a water skin <br /> things that are nice to have: <br /> sleeping mat, gps cellphone with highspeed internet, rope, snacks, camera, water key, maps <br /> riding 60km a day is easy <br /> riding 60km on hills is really tiring, but it is temporary <br /> riding 160km (about 12 hours) is tiring <br /> matsuyama is a college town and is filled with beautiful women <br /> takamatsu had no real charm <br /> little towns on the expressway suck <br /> little towns in the hills are cool <br /> a 300 yen watermelon from a road stand was the best part of the trip for me <br /> a 300 yen watermelon from a road stand was the best part of another trip i took too (!) <br /> being homeless is easy <br /> public baths are awesome but expensive (480yen a pop) <br /> katsuo no tataki in kochi really lived up to the hype <br /> breakfast is important for energy <br /> bananas <br /> john hit is head on a metal part of a pole just above his eye and left of his temple <br /> it could have been very very bad <br /> he was very lucky <br /> old men stopped their cars ahead of us and took pictures with very pro cameras almost every day <br /> something always went bump in the night <br /> freedom is a very powerful and addictive feeling <br /> the road next to the shimanto river is abandoned and beautiful <br /> downhill feels amazing <br /> i wish sleeping outside was legal and safe in america <br /> i wish biking was more accepted in america 12.8.08 <br /> i like what you've done with the place <br /> <br /> waves <br /> beating down the waves <br /> <br /> get the internet <br /> and you start to realize that there is information <br /> on everything <br /> and it is linked to everything <br /> you start seeing this information in your everyday life <br /> for example <br /> a rash <br /> this could be a symptom <br /> surely there is information on the internet about this <br /> whoah bad idea <br /> then you sort of get a feel for the way things are connected <br /> you know what kind of results you will find without even searching <br /> and it starts to get even further abstracted <br /> you start imagining everything <br /> linked to everything <br /> which is something <br /> that is very problimatic to internalize <br /> <br /> do you feel that you are viewing yourself from the 3rd person sometimes? <br /> yes <br /> and you are totally out of control of your own actions? <br /> no, never <br /> then what? <br /> just the reverse, i am totally in control and everyone around me is out of control <br /> what's controlling them? <br /> stuff, mostly <br /> what do you feel when you see yourself? <br /> that i am in on the joke <br /> and who is playing the joke? <br /> everyone is playing the joke on eachother <br /> how did you escape it then? <br /> i guess i wasnt interested in the lead in bit, <br /> you know the part where a guy walks into a bar. <br /> what's the punchline of the joke? <br /> a guy walks into a bar. OUCH! <br /> death? <br /> yeah, death <br /> but you cant escape death, even if you don't care about the joke <br /> yeah, but caring about the joke takes a hell of a lot of concentration <br /> in fact all of it <br /> and when you stop concetrating you start to realize everything going on around you <br /> you start to see you <br /> from outside of you <br /> <br /> 11.13.08 <br /> inonakanokaeru <br /> the frog in the well <br /> <br /> knows not of the great ocean <br /> it is futile to tell it about the ocean <br /> <br /> you can be free! <br /> but it's futile <br /> <br /> hi there im from the ocean <br /> and even though you were very close to me <br /> to you leaveing the well was stepping off the edge of a flat earth <br /> <br /> 11.12.08 <br /> peace and hope <br /> <br /> and kanpeace <br /> 50 peaces(pieces?) in a can <br /> id have to say that the last few months have not been a particullary good streak <br /> just sort of average <br /> scatterd with half promises i half kept <br /> and dotted with moments of trying really hard <br /> and not trying at all <br /> if i could just keep a few promises all of the time <br /> and try minimally hard most of the some <br /> i wonder what would happen? <br /> <br /> promise #31 <br /> touch no money <br /> <br /> i currently have no money in my wallet <br /> i havent had any for a week <br /> i want to see if i can go a month <br /> without touching money <br /> except that i have money somewhere in my bag in case i see something really shiney <br /> <br /> promise #7 <br /> learn japanese <br /> <br /> i look up tens of words every day in my dictionary <br /> words that ive heard at least once before get saved in the memo <br /> i then put them into an awesome flashcard program called <br /> genius <br /> and the i review them every night before i go to bed <br /> except i don't <br /> and it only happens a few days a month <br /> <br /> promise#55 <br /> keep my apartment clean all the time <br /> <br /> im sure you all know how this one goes <br /> my strategy is to have nothing <br /> so i have nothing to get messy <br /> but dishes <br /> dishes! <br /> <br /> 11.11.08 <br /> dear internet bros <br /> <br /> i need some allsorts licorice <br /> for eating <br /> can you send me some? <br /> that probably costs you money <br /> i will give you this money <br /> <br /> 11.3.08 <br /> climbed and climbed <br /> finally came over the hill <br /> started to gather momentum <br /> the bike stabilized <br /> took my hands off the handle <br /> stood my body up straight <br /> closed my eyes <br /> and waited <br /> for as long as i could take it <br /> i opened my eyes and i was still going straight <br /> tried it again <br /> was totally off track <br /> you never know <br /> 8.7.08 <br /> today i bought <br /> a camera <br /> a gps <br /> a mp3 player <br /> a wifi internet browser device <br /> a celluar internet modem <br /> a radio <br /> an ip phone <br /> a personal organizer <br /> a video player <br /> except they are all one device <br /> and that device is a cell phone <br /> with a replacable battery <br /> and <br /> copy and paste <br /> <br /> i bought a nokia n95 because my old phone broke <br /> if you think the iphone is hot shit check out the other smart phones 10.31.08 <br /> jeez jeez haruki murakami in japanese <br /> <br /> im reading my first novel in japanese <br /> it takes me less time to read a page in japanese than it does in english <br /> but that is only when i know how to read everything on the page <br /> when i dont <br /> it takes 5 minutes <br /> <br /> entry aborted <br /> <br /> 10.26.08 <br /> <a href="http://www.theselby.com">things in artists houses</a> <br /> <br /> sewing machine <br /> taxidermied animals <br /> records <br /> wall of pictures in different frames <br /> things hanging from the ceiling <br /> macs <br /> nudes / sexual things on display <br /> huge bookshelves full of art books <br /> leicas <br /> porcelin kitch <br /> new york apartments <br /> old tools <br /> suitcases <br /> photos/paintings/drawings of themselves <br /> beautiful siginificant others <br /> always non-standard light fixtures <br /> old photos <br /> magazine collections <br /> nice shoes <br /> bikes <br /> skulls/skeletons/human figures 8.2.08 <br /> rocks <br /> i can see how it would be easy to start a rock collection <br /> in fact in my life ive started many <br /> life is a series of rock collections <br /> <br /> money <br /> if you hate money <br /> it is nice to be able to make it unseen <br /> by putting it somewhere that doesnt even physically exist <br /> it is just a concept that can be quantified on a computer of an atm <br /> if you hate money it is nice to never even touch it <br /> and when you have to use it to never think about it <br /> <br /> animals <br /> people look like animals <br /> sometimes it strikes me how wierd it is that we are all wearing clothes <br /> and hiding in buildings <br /> and doing things like <br /> blushing <br /> making myths <br /> working for things other than survival <br /> <br /> aji <br /> means flavor in japanese <br /> but is used to describe patena <br /> this rock has great flavor coming out <br /> to make flavor come out of rocks you water them every day <br /> to make flavor come out of a knife you use it every day <br /> flavor is not something you can buy, unless you want someone else's flavor <br /> some people love flavor and value it <br /> other people want flavor to not exist <br /> these are teflon people <br /> faces have flavor <br /> jeans have flavor <br /> toilets <br /> bars of soap <br /> coat hangers <br /> the marks left by repetitive use, however long or short <br /> make up <br /> disposable <br /> most coatings <br /> public persona/private persona dicotomy <br /> air fresheners <br /> these things are anti-flavor <br /> <br /> 7.15.08 <br /> things i fantasized showing a fictional tv show that visits people's houses at random: <br /> how i make yogurt <br /> my book collection <br /> selected bizzare seasonings <br /> knives <br /> a collection of dried fish skin that i had arranged <br /> my herb garden <br /> the contents of my refrigerator <br /> my 100% nutritionally complete breakfast schematic <br /> my object appreciation pedistal <br /> a slab of marble <br /> <br /> 7.8.08 <br /> black rain <br /> rewatch <br /> filmed in osaka <br /> after meeting the location scout <br /> it makes it different after living here <br /> but not very <br /> like LA filmed by the bad betamaxs of NHK <br /> <br /> 7.7.08 <br /> i bought shampoo today <br /> it was really exciting <br /> dont know why <br /> but i really like looking for something <br /> and then finding something that is what i was looking for <br /> and then buying it <br /> <br /> if i didnt have to pay rent <br /> i use so little money every month <br /> i get food from the restaurant <br /> i ride a bike everywhere <br /> the shampoo i bought was worth the same as <br /> 30 eggs <br /> which would make 15 days of lunch <br /> <br /> i kept a list of things i bought last month <br /> trash bags <br /> cucumbers <br /> onions <br /> a bar of soap <br /> a meter of chain <br /> a bottle of beer <br /> sandpaper <br /> and a few other things <br /> <br /> all kinds of great stuff comes from people i know <br /> which is just how it works in Japan <br /> what they get in return is work from me <br /> and gifts that i regift in strategic ways <br /> <br /> i just need to get rid of the rent <br /> <br /> 7.3.08 <br /> my ideal blog would be <br /> a page that sits on the server that is passoword protected <br /> and can be acessed from any browser <br /> it only has a few functions <br /> new post, delete post, upload image, number of posts to display on main page <br /> it is all text interface <br /> it generates a simple html file that mimicks hand coding <br /> all style related elements are delegated to a style sheet <br /> no templates or fancy bullshit <br /> im working on writing this software <br /> the database is kept in text file seperated by month only 10.23.08 <br /> an excerpt from my post apocalyptic novel <br /> <br /> the fire in the neighborhood near the house i am staying in now really scared me <br /> who knows what caused it <br /> probably some rotten battery or a magnifying glass in a windowsill <br /> but it's still burning <br /> todays plan: <br /> blow up all the houses around my house and burn them one by one <br /> then i will bulldoze the rubble somewhere and collect plants from the nursaries <br /> this week i am exploring block S-32 on the map <br /> most of that block is taken up by a jr highschool <br /> i always imagined finding other people and starting a commune in an old school <br /> but it still freaks me out to go to one that is totally empty. <br /> this month i have to go to tokyo <br /> i am hoping to find the offices of google intact <br /> there they have a cache of the text of all the websites they index <br /> this will go into the library i am building back in osaka <br /> driving is always dangerous because of the animals <br /> the route is mostly clear but if i run into a pack of tanuki it could be all over <br /> and the last time i tried to teach myself to fly i almost killed myself <br /> there has been a smell spreading over the city over the last week <br /> a very metallic smell <br /> it is coming from the water i figured out <br /> i pumped some out of the main that i always use and it reeked <br /> it must be the activity of some bacteria <br /> but the water is no longer safe to drink <br /> i will go back to distilling rainwater <br /> the place i am living now is a pre ww2 mansion <br /> i heard stories that durin the war the old man who lived here alone would come out <br /> to sell tresures he had collected for whatever food he could find <br /> everyone was starving <br /> after the war his house was taken by the govenment, slowly, by the new tax system <br /> and turned into a museum parody of itself that was only open on the first sunday of the month <br /> the house is getting pretty full <br /> i still can't help myself, i bring home all kinds of stuff <br /> i have raided all the museums and after i found the explosives raided everything else <br /> even after 3 years i have still only explored 1.3% of what i can reach by car in a day <br /> there is plenty of food <br /> but the 3 year rice tastes pretty bad compared to what i used to eat <br /> there are still more sardines in cans than there are in the ocean <br /> <br /> <br /> <br /> 10.21.08 <br /> never work (for money) again - thought 1 <br /> <br /> not working for money is even harder work than working for money <br /> ya get my drift? <br /> <br /> start by "owning" the things you dont own <br /> you don't own the electricty or other utilities <br /> these can be described as things you lease <br /> you don't even own the property that you may think you "own" <br /> the govenment owns your property and you lease it from them every year when you pay property taxes <br /> you certainly don't own your identity in the way we know it now <br /> your id cards, birth certificate, etc are your identity and they are not yours <br /> <br /> there are some things you cant, or won't want to own. <br /> for example owning water means you need to own land with the well on it <br /> these things go on the list of things that are essentially free <br /> not free as in beer <br /> but free as in air <br /> <br /> living in a system that uses money means you will have to rely on the system's leaks <br /> dumpster diving <br /> charity <br /> the blind spots of society <br /> loopholes <br /> feedback loops <br /> <br /> if you use the remaining money you have as a "monied" person you can set up a good loop <br /> for example renting out a property you own to pay it's taxes and upkeep <br /> live in a small shelter on the same property <br /> this is a money loop you never have to touch, it takes care of its self for the most part <br /> that leaves you <br /> <br /> so now you have to worry about you <br /> without money you will die <br /> you will die before you would die if you had money <br /> no money to pay for healthcare means just that <br /> if you participate in whatever welfare system there is you can extend your life <br /> <br /> there are a lot of ways to do it <br /> so quit your job today <br /> <br /> 10.19.08 <br /> shower <br /> <br /> wash hair with massage brush <br /> wash face with scrub <br /> brush teeth / scrape toungue <br /> wash body with puff <br /> shave <br /> wash nose again <br /> dry <br /> apply pore stuff (wait 5 min) <br /> apply antiperspirant <br /> apply conditioner <br /> dress <br /> apply face lotion with spf <br /> <br /> way too complicated <br /> <br /> 10.2.08(cusp) <br /> a portrait of a john, 25 years old <br /> <br /> another day <br /> another dollar <br /> another ring around the collar <br /> <br /> i'll be twenty five <br /> tomorrow <br /> i'll put my thoughts here <br /> and then look at them next year <br /> <br /> people are more important <br /> people are really easy to read <br /> this year people were really important <br /> <br /> things are less important <br /> throw them away <br /> and you will be free <br /> <br /> collect tools <br /> knowledge is a tool <br /> but only the good tools <br /> the proven tools <br /> and the new tools <br /> whose relivency can be determined <br /> by experience <br /> <br /> you are lucky <br /> very lucky <br /> but that is also a burden <br /> <br /> do whatever you can do <br /> to keep your mind sharp <br /> <br /> vanity is stupid <br /> don't participate in it <br /> <br /> you can work every day <br /> you can never work <br /> either way you will survive <br /> because you are participating in a system <br /> which prevents failure <br /> <br /> damn, i dont have the right inspiration <br /> to write this now <br /> goodnight 24 <br /> <br /> <br /> 9.30.08 <br /> a conversation i had with my father in a dream <br /> <br /> what was it like to be a janitor? <br /> is was the best ever. <br /> what was so great about it? <br /> well basically you sleep all day go into the school after most people leave <br /> wax the hallways and vacuume the classrooms <br /> wipe down the blackboards <br /> thats about it <br /> you have your own office <br /> and if you are effcient you can finnish cleaning and just sleep until it's time to go home <br /> and it's govenment so you get health benifits etc <br /> i can imagine nowadays if you brought a laptop it could be great <br /> yeah <br /> so why did you leave it? <br /> basically i needed more money for the family and you just sort of get burned out <br /> you can only goof off for so long in the same place before people get uptight <br /> i bet the atmosphere of a school at night is pretty good <br /> all the energy of the kids is sort of soaked into the walls and floors <br /> the air is thick with constuction paper and the smell of sunshine coming from the big windows <br /> yeah, you really notice the seasons for some reason <br /> sure beats being a teacher <br /> <br /> --- <br /> <br /> what did you just say? <br /> no <br /> what did you just say! <br /> you just said it! <br /> the word! <br /> i was trying to think of <br /> <br /> --- <br /> <br /> when my alarm went off this morning <br /> i was lying on my back <br /> and the tip of my nose was cold <br /> really cold <br /> i opened my eyes and the light was blinding so i closed them <br /> and i saw floating in front of me black text on a white background <br /> its format was that of an email <br /> it was from julia <br /> and the topic of the letter was fall <br /> the first line applogized for the appearence of the text <br /> it was the best she could find on short notice <br /> the rest of the letter was written in my style not her's <br /> and went something like this: <br /> you look down at the rain in the gutter from the open car door <br /> some bright pink chewed up gum is tumbling down the stream <br /> in your mind you see a colorful flashing neon sign <br /> and you smell the smell of being hit in the head <br /> hard <br /> plus the smell of liquid <a href="http://www.pharmaceutical-drug-manufacturers.com/gifs/amoxicillin.jpg">amoxicillin</a> <br /> then the sound of whoppers being shaken in the box can be heard <br /> and you see the front of a dentist's office <br /> where the japanese maple is very striking in its fall colors <br /> you smell the smoke from a chimney <br /> but you know it is the firewood heating a bath <br /> then blood of an animal being spilled <br /> a burrito on a white plate <br /> and crying <br /> <br /> 9.26.08 <br /> moving to japan helped me realize a lot of my dreams <br /> working in a japanese restaurant was one of them <br /> i am making a section of this website devoted to that <br /> <a href="../washoku/">washoku</a> <br /> <br /> 9.23.08 <br /> somewhere something is spinning very fast <br /> it's spinning <br /> somewhere something is burning very hot <br /> it's burning <br /> <br /> <br /> 9.17.09 <br /> pineapple seeds <br /> <br /> i bought a pine apple and ate it <br /> the whole thing in one go <br /> the strange thing was that it had seeds <br /> little black hard seeds near the skin <br /> so i threw them in a pot <br /> and a few days later i have pineapple sprouts <br /> does anyone want a pineapple plant? <br /> they are bromeliads <br /> they will grow you pineapples <br /> <br /> 9.16.09 <br /> tsukimi <br /> <br /> the moon controls the tides <br /> it controls the inner juices of man <br /> once you see it you can't unsee it <br /> yet every time you see it <br /> it's new <br /> because it's so far away <br /> because there's so much stuff between you and it <br /> so why can perception be like viewing the moon <br /> if you look at the mona lisa once <br /> you've seen the mona lisa <br /> if you back 10 years later <br /> and you look at the mona lisa <br /> it's the same mona lisa <br /> because there's no physical stuff between you and it <br /> nothing perceptable <br /> with your eyes <br /> like the moon <br /> if we could make all of that stuff that we can't see <br /> that we can't perceive <br /> like that stuff between us and the moon <br /> then we could look at something for the first time <br /> every time <br /> <br /> 9.15.09 <br /> today i bought hundreds of dollars of new bedding <br /> a 90% goose down comforter <br /> hemp comforter cover, matching pillow cases <br /> two soba pillows <br /> jersey fit sheet <br /> cotton mattress pad with 3D baffel design <br /> i ran around all day, but saved a ton of money in doing so <br /> i didn't know anything about bedding until this morning <br /> with the power of the internet a hour of research will bring you up to speed on anything <br /> now i will surely sleep in supreme comfort this winter <br /> <br /> 9.12.09 <br /> i found the new thickest ramen ever <br /> there is clearly a cauldron of bones boiling away behind the counter <br /> imagine delcious elmers glue <br /> with noodles in it <br /> so good <br /> you can get replacement noodles for 100 yen <br /> if you eat all the noodles <br /> one bowl of the soup would be enough to make 2 gallons of flavorful collard greens <br /> and the name is <br /> muteppou <br /> which means <br /> no gun <br /> <br /> 9.11.09 <br /> shaving is a story <br /> <br /> cuture is the stories we tell <br /> is an idea <br /> i was exposed to in university <br /> we tell them with language <br /> (don't tell noam chompsky) <br /> language is a virus <br /> (don't tell laurie anderson or burroughs) <br /> shaving is a story <br /> stories just get better and better <br /> we have the technology now to find the "writers" <br /> of all the stories ever <br /> (dont tell brian eno, or david byrne for that matter) <br /> and they will make them and we will be exposed to them <br /> the internet is a virus <br /> it works on language <br /> what will this do to culture? <br /> <br /> -- <br /> <br /> autopilots <br /> <br /> picture yourself winning the race <br /> is something my swim coach told me when i was a kid <br /> his name was joe <br /> picture yourself moving through the water <br /> picture the walls of the pool <br /> picture the shoes of the spectators on the deck <br /> picture the girl at the supermarket last night <br /> when you remembered you were out of rice <br /> <br /> going on autopilot is a well known phenomenon <br /> you do something without thinking of doing it <br /> in times when you don't want to be doing that thing <br /> or when you have no choice in the matter <br /> <br /> you picture yourself winning the race <br /> the podium <br /> etc <br /> and when you hit the water <br /> you think about nothing <br /> <br /> how far can you expand your conciousness <br /> to include as many things as possible <br /> to include the girl in the supermarket <br /> so that you can be present at the controls <br /> when you want to be the pilot <br /> <br /> when you are in the water it is like a replay <br /> of the events you have already pictured <br /> and everything should go as planned <br /> he said <br /> <br /> i went to the store to buy rice <br /> i made complex decissions <br /> and then i came home and realized <br /> when my foot hit the pedal <br /> that i thought of nothing <br /> until i was eating hot rice <br /> <br /> if you try to concentrate on everything all day <br /> you will be very tired at the end <br /> believe me, ive tried it <br /> there are certain times you have to go on autopilot <br /> where you indulge in what zen is searching for <br /> but what if you could focus all the time <br /> and save your ability to think about nothing <br /> for a time when you have nothing to replay <br /> nothing to go as planned <br /> just go on autopilot <br /> in a black box? <br /> <br /> 9.8.09 <br /> living in japan <br /> has helped me view living in america again <br /> with a pre-living in japan kind of wonderlust <br /> 25cent jawbreaker vending machines instead of gachagacha machines <br /> diner food instead of kissaten <br /> diversity instead of monoculture <br /> all seem so new and fresh <br /> exciting <br /> like viewing them for the first time <br /> it is great <br /> perfect almost <br /> two great tastes that taste great together <br /> <br /> 9.7.09 <br /> john <br /> starting from next week there will be a section on the menu <br /> with each individual cook's personal menu <br /> <br /> there will be john's menu <br /> <br /> just one item <br /> it changes every week <br /> so if you go to the market and think <br /> i want to do this with that <br /> do it and put it on the menu <br /> i will not taste test it <br /> that is the challenge <br /> each person has their fans <br /> john's fans will order john's menu <br /> and tell you if it is good or not <br /> also <br /> this is john's knife rack now <br /> and only john's knives are on it <br /> and you should also think about getting your blowfish license <br /> - <br /> if my mentor really follows through with this plan <br /> it will be a very big deal <br /> in my world of washing dishes <br /> and plating pickles <br /> <br /> - <br /> there is a certain flavor to languages <br /> the flavor of japanese i really like <br /> especially when explaining things <br /> or processes <br /> tastes great <br /> less filling <br /> american english <br /> tastes smooth and flowing <br /> like caramel <br /> those good ones with the marshmallow in them <br /> that they sell at the counter of drug stores <br /> the effciency and flow of english is it's charm <br /> i havent decided what japanese tastes like yet <br /> but it's charm lies in individual words more than it's flow <br /> words that contain so much meaning <br /> it takes years to grasp their nuance <br /> people say i speak beautiful japanese <br /> probably because of my background in flow <br /> what i want to speak is brutal japanese <br /> so deft in it's effciency and word choice <br /> that it is moving <br /> but <br /> that will take a long time <br /> <br /> 9.3.09 <br /> There is a kind of laundry drying shelter on the roof of my apartment. <br /> I hung a hammock there. <br /> I sit in the hammock and smoke my pipe. <br /> Tonight it started raining heavily <br /> and some of the neon on a far away building was flickering <br /> i have a ftp client and a text editor in my pocket, i thought <br /> i can tell people <br /> about the neon <br /> <br /> 8.31.08 <br /> shikoku bike bonanza <br /> <br /> bicycles are super efficient <br /> traveling by boat is cheap and wonderful <br /> we slept in parks and an internet cafe twice <br /> i liked sleeping in parks but every bit of skin needs to be covered <br /> and even then you get bitten by mosquitos <br /> there are no mosquitos near flowing water <br /> there are the most mostquitos in cities <br /> the only things you need to carry: <br /> tools, two pairs of socks and underwear, three layers, wallet, sungaurd, a water skin <br /> things that are nice to have: <br /> sleeping mat, gps cellphone with highspeed internet, rope, snacks, camera, water key, maps <br /> riding 60km a day is easy <br /> riding 60km on hills is really tiring, but it is temporary <br /> riding 160km (about 12 hours) is tiring <br /> matsuyama is a college town and is filled with beautiful women <br /> takamatsu had no real charm <br /> little towns on the expressway suck <br /> little towns in the hills are cool <br /> a 300 yen watermelon from a road stand was the best part of the trip for me <br /> a 300 yen watermelon from a road stand was the best part of another trip i took too (!) <br /> being homeless is easy <br /> public baths are awesome but expensive (480yen a pop) <br /> katsuo no tataki in kochi really lived up to the hype <br /> breakfast is important for energy <br /> bananas <br /> john hit is head on a metal part of a pole just above his eye and left of his temple <br /> it could have been very very bad <br /> he was very lucky <br /> old men stopped their cars ahead of us and took pictures with very pro cameras almost every day <br /> something always went bump in the night <br /> freedom is a very powerful and addictive feeling <br /> the road next to the shimanto river is abandoned and beautiful <br /> downhill feels amazing <br /> i wish sleeping outside was legal and safe in america <br /> i wish biking was more accepted in america <br /> <br /> <br /> <br /> 8.7.08 <br /> today i bought <br /> a camera <br /> a gps <br /> a mp3 player <br /> a wifi internet browser device <br /> a celluar internet modem <br /> a radio <br /> an ip phone <br /> a personal organizer <br /> a video player <br /> except they are all one device <br /> and that device is a cell phone <br /> with a replacable battery <br /> and <br /> copy and paste <br /> <br /> i bought a nokia n95 because my old phone broke <br /> if you think the iphone is hot shit check out the other smart phones <br /> <br /> <br /> 8.2.08 <br /> rocks <br /> i can see how it would be easy to start a rock collection <br /> in fact in my life ive started many <br /> life is a series of rock collections <br /> <br /> money <br /> if you hate money <br /> it is nice to be able to make it unseen <br /> by putting it somewhere that doesnt even physically exist <br /> it is just a concept that can be quantified on a computer of an atm <br /> if you hate money it is nice to never even touch it <br /> and when you have to use it to never think about it <br /> <br /> animals <br /> people look like animals <br /> sometimes it strikes me how wierd it is that we are all wearing clothes <br /> and hiding in buildings <br /> and doing things like <br /> blushing <br /> making myths <br /> working for things other than survival <br /> <br /> aji <br /> means flavor in japanese <br /> but is used to describe patena <br /> this rock has great flavor coming out <br /> to make flavor come out of rocks you water them every day <br /> to make flavor come out of a knife you use it every day <br /> flavor is not something you can buy, unless you want someone else's flavor <br /> some people love flavor and value it <br /> other people want flavor to not exist <br /> these are teflon people <br /> faces have flavor <br /> jeans have flavor <br /> toilets <br /> bars of soap <br /> coat hangers <br /> the marks left by repetitive use, however long or short <br /> make up <br /> disposable <br /> most coatings <br /> public persona/private persona dicotomy <br /> air fresheners <br /> these things are anti-flavor <br /> <br /> 7.15.08 <br /> things i fantasized showing a fictional tv show that visits people's houses at random: <br /> how i make yogurt <br /> my book collection <br /> selected bizzare seasonings <br /> knives <br /> a collection of dried fish skin that i had arranged <br /> my herb garden <br /> the contents of my refrigerator <br /> my 100% nutritionally complete breakfast schematic <br /> my object appreciation pedistal <br /> a slab of marble <br /> <br /> 7.8.08 <br /> black rain <br /> rewatch <br /> filmed in osaka <br /> after meeting the location scout <br /> it makes it different after living here <br /> but not very <br /> like LA filmed by the bad betamaxs of NHK <br /> <br /> 7.7.08 <br /> i bought shampoo today <br /> it was really exciting <br /> dont know why <br /> but i really like looking for something <br /> and then finding something that is what i was looking for <br /> and then buying it <br /> <br /> if i didnt have to pay rent <br /> i use so little money every month <br /> i get food from the restaurant <br /> i ride a bike everywhere <br /> the shampoo i bought was worth the same as <br /> 30 eggs <br /> which would make 15 days of lunch <br /> <br /> i kept a list of things i bought last month <br /> trash bags <br /> cucumbers <br /> onions <br /> a bar of soap <br /> a meter of chain <br /> a bottle of beer <br /> sandpaper <br /> and a few other things <br /> <br /> all kinds of great stuff comes from people i know <br /> which is just how it works in Japan <br /> what they get in return is work from me <br /> and gifts that i regift in strategic ways <br /> <br /> i just need to get rid of the rent <br /> <br /> 7.3.08 <br /> my ideal blog would be <br /> a page that sits on the server that is passoword protected <br /> and can be acessed from any browser <br /> it only has a few functions <br /> new post, delete post, upload image, number of posts to display on main page <br /> it is all text interface <br /> it generates a simple html file that mimicks hand coding <br /> all style related elements are delegated to a 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